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[Feb. 28th, 2008|11:15 pm] |
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I'm going to die. He's going to kill me. |
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[Feb. 24th, 2008|07:36 pm] |
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I look around and all I can see are a lot of confusion. I realized that I am completely and totally lost. i don't know when or how I lost my way, but I am. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2008|03:22 am] |
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First of all, I suspect Tweak is gay. That big happy smiley is probably some lonely bloke in need of a good shagging, but I digress.
I am so bloody restless today. I haven't done anything except stay home, watch television and smoke pot. My life has become meaningless, mundane and whatever other negative adjective you can think of that begins with "m."
I am currently laying in bed in just my knickers, staring up at the ceiling. I want to sleep, yet can't seem to. Two Ambien and two shots of Jack later I am still wide awake.
So I get online, start talking to this bird and I suspect she fancies me. At this point and time in my life, I doubt anyone would fancy a wanker like myself. She's like the positive to my negative. It kinda frustrates me how she refuses to give up, just won't let me win the arguement on how pathetic I believe I am. I can't take it. It's all too much. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2008|06:22 am] |
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I believe that somewhere along the way, I lost myself. I think that when I lost her, I just wasn't the same. And now that I lost him too, I probably really won't have a chance of being the same old me again. I avoided the whole Valentine drama bullshit. I just got in the Mustang and took a drive. I had to. I guess I just had to find myself again.
It's kinda hard because you don't really remember when the hell you lost it or where. You just have friends who tell you that you don't act like yourself anymore. That you've somehow lost something in you that made you well..you.
I don't know when I'll be back. Proabbly when I run out of drugs. And I don't know who or what I'll be when I come back. >s?Hopefully something better than the arsehole that I am now.</s> But we shall see, I guess. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2008|01:21 pm] |
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I don't know what I am doing anymore.
I seriously am just confused. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2007|09:37 pm] |
Today is the day! I am finally getting out of this tiny 1 bedroom studio hellhole and moving to the lovely Windermere apartments. I am sure that there will be a housewarming party for all my closest friends.
Now on to the important part. Gotta call Bret and make sure that moving crew is coming to get all my stuff outta here. |
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